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has been caught or until you find him!how I¨d love to torture him myself� �
and until Our Sultan¨s book�察 �pleted under the guidance of your talents
and efforts�察�has been honorably presented to Him�察�you will not share my bed。
Fourth�察�you will love my sons�察�who do share my bed with me�察�as if they were
your own children。 ̄
^I agree。 ̄
^Good。 If all of the obstacles that still lie before us disappear this quickly�察�
we¨ll soon be wed。 ̄
^Yes�察�wed�察�but not in the same bed。 ̄
^The first step is marriage�察院�I said。 ^Let¨s see to that first。 Love es after
marriage。 Don¨t forget�此 �Marriage douses love¨s flame�察 �leaving nothing but a
barren and melancholy blackness。 Of course�察 �after marriage�察 �love itself will
vanish anyway�察 �but happiness fills the void。 Still�察 �there are those hasty fools
who fall in love before marrying and�察�burning with emotion�察�exhaust all their
feeling�察�believing love to be the highest goal in life。 ̄
^What�察�then�察�is the truth of the matter�拭院�
^The truth is contentment。 Love and marriage are but a means to obtaining
it�此�a husband�察�a house�察�children�察�a book。 Can¨t you see that even in my state�察�
with a missing husband and a deceased father�察�I¨m better off than you in your
isolation�拭 �I¨d die without my sons�察 �with whom I spend my days laughing�察�
tussling and loving。 Moreover�察 �since you long for me even in my present
predicament�察�since you secretly ache to spend the night with me!even if not
in the same bed!under the same roof with my father¨s body and my unruly
children�察�you¨re pelled to listen with all your heart to what I now have to
say。 ̄
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^I¨m listening。 ̄
^There are various ways that I might secure a divorce。 False witnesses could
swear that before my husband set out on campaign�察�they witnessed him grant
me a conditional divorce�察 �for example�察 �that he¨d pledged that if he didn¨t
return within two years�察 �I should be considered free。 Or�察 �more simply�察 �they
might swear they¨d seen my husband¨s corpse in the field of battle�察 �citing
various convincing and descriptive details。 But taking my father¨s body and
the objections of my in´laws into consideration�察 �to rely on false witnesses
would be an unsound way to proceed�察 �as no judge of any intelligence or
caution would be persuaded。 Considering that my husband left me without
alimony and hasn¨t returned from war for four years�察 �even judges of our
Hanefi creed couldn¨t grant me a divorce。 The ┨sk┨dar judge�察 �however�察�
knowing how the number of women in my situation is increasing each day�察�is
more sympathetic and so!with a nod from Our Excellency the Sultan and the
Sheikhulislam!the judge occasionally allows his proxy of the Shaf┨ creed to
rule in his place�察 �thereby granting divorces left and right to women like me�察�
including conditions of alimony。 Now�察�if you can find two witnesses to testify
openly to my predicament�察 �pay them off�察 �cross the Bosphorus with them to
the ┨sk┨dar side�察�arrange for the judge�察�making certain that his proxy will sit
in for him so the divorce might be granted by virtue of the witnesses�察�register
the divorce in the judge¨s ledger�察 �obtain a certificate testifying to the
proceeding�察 �obtain written permission for my immediate remarriage�察 �and if
you can acplish all of this and get back to this side of the Bosphorus by the
afternoon�察 �then!assuming no difficulty in finding a preacher who might
marry us this evening!then�察�as my husband�察�you could spend this night with
me and my children。 Thereby�察�you¨ll also spare us a sleepless night of hearing
in every creaking of the house the steps of that devilish murderer。 Moreover�察�
you¨ll save me from the wretchedness of being a poor unprotected woman
when we announce the death of my father in the morning。 ̄
^Yes�察院�said Black with good humor and somewhat childishly。 ^Yes。 I agree to
make you mine。 ̄
You remember how only recently I declared I didn¨t know why I was
speaking to Black in such a high´handed and insincere manner。 Now I know�此�
I¨ve e to realize that only by assuming such a tone might I convince
Black!who has yet to outgrow his childhood muddle´headedness!to believe
in the possibility of events that even I have a hard time believing will e to
pass。
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^We have a lot to do in fighting our enemies�察�those who would obstruct the
pletion of my father¨s book and those who could contest my divorce and
our marriage ceremony!which will be performed tonight�察�God willing。 But I
suppose I shouldn¨t further confuse you�察 �since you are already even more
confused than I。 ̄
^You aren¨t confused at all�察院�said Black。
^Perhaps�察�but only because these aren¨t my own ideas�察�I learned them from
my father over the years。 ̄ I said this so he wouldn¨t dismiss what I said�察�
assuming that these plans had sprung from my feminine mind。
Next�察�Black said what I¨d heard from every man who wasn¨t afraid to admit
he found me very intelligent�此�
^You¨re very beautiful。 ̄
^Yes�察院�I said�察 �it pleases me to be praised for my intelligence。 When I was a
child�察�my father would often do so。 ̄
I was about to add that once I¨d grown up my father ceased to praise my
intelligence�察�but I began to weep。 As I cried�察�it was as if I¨d left myself and was
being another�察 �entirely separate woman。 Like some reader troubled by a
sad picture in the pages of a book�察�I saw my life from the outside and pitied
what I saw。 There¨s something so innocent in crying over one¨s troubles�察 �as
though they were another¨s�察 �that when Black embraced me�察 �a sense of well´
being spread over us both。 Yet�察�this time�察�as we hugged�察�this sense of fort
remained there between us�察�unable to affect the adversaries circling us。
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I AM CALLED BLACK
Widowed�察�abandoned and aggrieved�察�my beloved Shekure fled with featherlike
steps�察�and I stood as if stunned in the stillness of the house of the Hanged Jew�察�
amid the aroma of almonds and dreams of marriage she¨d left in her wake。 I
was bewildered�察 �but my mind was churning so fast it almost hurt。 Without
even a chance to grieve properly over my Enishte¨s death�察 �I swiftly returned
home。 On the one hand�察�a worm of doubt was gnawing at me�此�Was Shekure
using me as a pawn in a grand scheme�察 �was she duping me�拭 �On the other
hand�察�fantasies of a blissful marriage stubbornly played before my eyes。
After making conversation with my landlady who interrogated me at the
front door as to where I¨d gone and whence I was ing at this morning
hour�察 �I went to my room and removed the twenty´two Veian gold pieces
from the lining of the sash I¨d hidden in my mattress�察 �placing them in my
money purse with trembling fingers。 When I returned to the street�察 �I knew
immediately I¨d see Shekure¨s dark�察�teary�察�troubled eyes for the rest of the day。
I changed five of the Veian Lions at a perpetually smiling Jewish money
changer。 Next�察�deep in thought�察�I entered the neighborhood whose name I¨ve
yet to mention because I¨m not fond of it�此 �Yakutlar�察 �where my deceased
Enishte and Shekure�察�along with her children�察�awaited me at their house。 As I
made my way along the streets almost running�察 �a tall plane tree seemed to
reproach me for being overjoyed by dreams and plans of marriage on the very
day my Enishte had passed away。 Next�察�as the ice had melted�察�a street fountain
hissed into my ear�此 �Don¨t take matters too seriously�察�see to your own affairs
and your own happiness。 ̄ ^That¨s all fine and good�察院�objected an ill´omened
black cat licking himself on the corner�察 �but everybody�察 �yourself included�察�
suspects you had a hand in your uncle¨s murder。 ̄
The cat left off licking himself as I suddenly caught sight of its bewitching
eyes。 I don¨t have to tell you how brazen these Istanbul cats get when the
locals spoil them。
I found the Imam Effendi�察�whose droopy eyelids and large black eyes gave
him a perpetually sleepy look�察 �not at his house�察 �but in the courtyard of the
neighborhood mosque�察 �and there I asked him quite a trivial legal question�此�
^When is one obligated to testify in court�拭院�I raised my eyebrows as I listened
to his haughty answer as if I were hearing this information for the first time。
^Bearing witness is optional if other witnesses are present�察院 �explained the
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Imam Effendi�察 �but�察�in situations where there was only one witness�察�it is the
will of God that one bear witness。 ̄
^That¨s just the predicament I find myself in now�察院 �I said�察 �taking up the
conversation。 ^In a situation everyone knows about�察 �all the witnesses have
shirked their responsibilities and avoided going to court with the excuse that
 ̄it¨s only voluntary�察亜�and as a result the pressing concerns of those I¨m trying
to help are being pletely disregarded。 ̄
^Well�察院�said the Imam Effendi�察 �why don¨t you loosen your purse´strings a
little more�拭院�
I took out my pouch and showed him the Veian gold pieces huddled
within�此 �The broad space of the mosque courtyard�察 �the face of the preacher�察�
everything was suddenly illuminated by the glimmer of gold。 He asked me
what my dilemma was all about。
I explained who I was。 ^Enishte Effendi is ill�察院�I confided。 ^Before he dies�察�he
wants his daughter¨s widowhood certified and an alimony to be instituted。 ̄
I didn¨t even have to mention the proxy of the ┨sk┨dar judge。 The Imam
Effendi understood at once and said the entire neighborhood had long been
troubled over the fate of hapless Shekure�察�adding that the situation had already
persisted too long。 Instead of searching for a second witness required for a
legal separation at the door of the ┨sk┨dar judge�察�the Imam Effendi suggested
his brother。 Now�察�if I were to offer an additional gold piece to the brother�察�who
lived in the neighborhood and was familiar with the predicament of Shekure
and her darling children�察�I¨d be doing a good pious turn。 After all�察�for only two
gold coins the Imam Effendi was giving me a deal on the second witness。 We
immediately agreed。 The Imam Effendi went to fetch his brother。
The rest of our day rather resembled the ^cat´and´mouse ̄ stories that I¨d
watched storytellers in Aleppo coffeehouses act out。 Because of all the
adventure and trickery�察�such stories written up as narrative poems and bound
were never taken seriously even if presented in fine calligraphy�察 �that is�察 �they
were never illustrated。 I�察 �on the other hand�察 �was quite pleased to divide our
daylong adventure into four scenes�察�imagining each in the illustrated pages of
my mind。
In the first scene�察�the miniaturist ought to depict us amid mustachioed and
muscled oarsmen�察�forging our way across the blue Bosphorus toward ┨sk┨dar
in the four´oared red longboat we¨d boarded in Unkapan�拭� The preacher and
his skinny dark´plexioned brother�察 �pleased with the surprise voyage�察 �are
engaging the oarsmen in friendly chatter。 Meanwhile�察�amid blithe dreams of
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marriage that play ceaselessly before my eyes�察�I stare deep into the waters of
the Bosphorus�察�flowing clearer than usual on this sunny winter morning�察�on
guard for an ominous sign within its currents。 I¨m afraid�察�for example�察�that I
might see the wreck of a pirate ship below。 Thus�察�no matter how joyously the
miniaturist colors the sea and clouds�察 �he ought to include something
equivalent to the darkness of my fears and as intense as my dreams of
happiness!a terrifying´looking fish�察�for example!in the depths of the water
so the reader of my adventure won¨t assume all is rosy。
Our second picture ought to show the palaces of sultans�察�the meetings of
the Divan Council of State�察 �the reception of European ambassadors�察 �and
detailed and carefully posed crowded interiors of a subtlety worthy of
Bihzad�察 �that is�察 �the picture ought to partake of playful tricks and irony。
Thereby�察 �while the Kadi Effendi apparently makes an open´handed ^halt ̄
gesture indicating ^never ̄ or ^no ̄ to my bribe�察�with his other hand he ought
to be shown obligingly pocketing my Veian gold coins�察 �and the ultimate
result of this bribe should be depicted in the same picture�此�Shahap Effendi�察�the
Shaf┨ proxy presiding in place of the ┨sk┨dar judge。 The simultaneous
depiction of sequential events could only be achieved through an intelligent
miniaturist¨s cunning facility in page position。 Thus�察 �when the observer�察�
who first sees me giving a bribe�察 �notices elsewhere in the painting that the
man sitting cross´legged on the judge¨s cushion is the proxy�察�